its been a while.
but i needed to vent.
i love him. i really do.
but i can’t be his dormat. i can’t be the one who is always waiting with open arms. cuz the one with open arms is the one who leaves herself exposed and vulnerable. and i’ve taken that abuse with a smile for too long. im done with it, i’m sick of it, and if he doesn’t change his act, i’m dropping it.
its not even that i don’t want to forgive him. i simply can’t trust him and, so far, hes given me no reason to. i want nothing more than for him to take me into his arms and tell me everything will b ok and that i’m the only one he wants to b w. but ik that won’t happen. his damn pride and his damn rep keep him from that. oh, that and the fact that he thinks it FREAKING HILARIOUS to play games w me.